Thursday, April 15, 2010

Let there be growth.



Thick clouds of doubt laid heavy on my heart last night as I laid in bed.

Thoughts pelted my brain much like the heavy rain drops that attacked me this morning as I made my way to my car.

My mind raced as the red numbers on the alarm clock grew larger and larger.

Can I do this?
Do I have what it takes?
Am I prepared?
Am I the best one?
Is this to big for me to take on?
Will they like me?
What if I fail?


........

Finally. My eyes closed. But my mind wouldn't rest.

I woke up this morning not exhausted, but not rested either.

Anticipating. Thinking. Worrying. Contemplating.

........

But through the layers of self doubt and second thoughts, grew a calmed mind.

Self doubt was replaced with self confidence.

Thoughts of failure replaced with the excitement of a new challenge.

Much like the daffodils have pushed through layers of gravel and grit at the top of our driveway, proclaiming their tale of growth and perserverance.

And again I remind myself:

"When you're green, you're growing."

It's a new day for growth.

Will you be green with me?

2 comments:

  1. You will do great!!! I know all these things run through your head and you can't sleep because of it but you will be a great addition and you will be successful, just as you always are!

    Love ya!

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  2. Praying it all works out just perfectly...God has a great way of doing just that :D Sweet blessings!

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