Thursday, April 15, 2010
Let there be growth.
Thick clouds of doubt laid heavy on my heart last night as I laid in bed.
Thoughts pelted my brain much like the heavy rain drops that attacked me this morning as I made my way to my car.
My mind raced as the red numbers on the alarm clock grew larger and larger.
Can I do this?
Do I have what it takes?
Am I prepared?
Am I the best one?
Is this to big for me to take on?
Will they like me?
What if I fail?
Finally. My eyes closed. But my mind wouldn't rest.
I woke up this morning not exhausted, but not rested either.
Anticipating. Thinking. Worrying. Contemplating.
But through the layers of self doubt and second thoughts, grew a calmed mind.
Self doubt was replaced with self confidence.
Thoughts of failure replaced with the excitement of a new challenge.
Much like the daffodils have pushed through layers of gravel and grit at the top of our driveway, proclaiming their tale of growth and perserverance.
And again I remind myself:
"When you're green, you're growing."
It's a new day for growth.
Will you be green with me?