Something of our own.

I don't know if I have the right words for this post, so I'm just going to write (and not edit a whole lot) and hopefully you can follow along with me....
We have a goal of having something of {our own}.
At first, we thought maybe it'd be a ranch where we'd live and Clint would get to run cows while I worked in town.  And so we moved to Nebraska and tried to reach that goal.
And it didn't work.

Life happens. 
Things don't work out the way you thought they would, so you pick up the pieces, find another goal and start over.  And was it frustrating/disheartening/dissapointing at the time?
100% yes.
But it was also a learning experience, a good life lesson, and looking back now - something I think was good to go through.  It doesn't have to be perfect to be beautiful, and the whole Nebraska move was a really good example of that.  We learned a lot about ourselves, the strength of our marriage and our personal goals during those 10 months in Nebraska.
Adrienne and I were driving through cows Saturday night, writing down ear tag numbers of cows in standing heat we needed to AI in the morning and she asked how long we'd been at Double M. 
Four years, I replied.  
 And that's not a long time, but it got me thinking about how it's long enough to know when you've found a good fit.
Now our life isn't perfect - far from it.  We still run into bumps and hurdles, and people don't see eye to eye - but in the big grand scene of life - we are blessed.  I have a great job, in a challenging office with employees who hustle and work hard right alongside of me.   Clint gets to work for great people and for the most part - they let him do his job, and let him make decisions as if the cattle were his own.  I find us saying "we" a lot, and it's not because we have any ownership at all in the ranch or the ranch's cattle (we don't), but because Mike & Patsy let Clint manage things as if they were his own.  And that level of trust in an employee is empowering....and makes someone want to work even harder at a job.
But our initial goal of having something of {our own} was still pulling at us. 

And so now, instead of desiring to own a ranch, we are working to build an AI business.  It's not something we sat down and discussed, or drew up a business plan and went to the bank and took out a loan for.  It's something we started little by little and have financed ourselves by saving and paying cash for things.  A few breeding projects turned into a few more breeding projects, and suddenly this year we find ourselves looking at the calendar and not seeing a free day for the next two months between work & AI projects.  We bred on projects in every month last year, except for July.


And so what has happened was this dream of having something of our own, has turned into a lifestyle.
And one I wouldn't give up for anything right now.

 It's a side business that lets Clint and I spend a majority of our free time together.

It's a dream that we both love working towards.

It's an effort where we get to spend quality time with people we really like.
We're picky about the projects we take on and the people we work with, partly because we have the luxury to do so (since it's not our main source of income) but mostly because we want the process to be fun.  We figure if we're going to spend our free time working our tails off - we might as well work with people we like and for ranches & people who respect us and want to work with us.
And so we do.

This past weekend was a prime example of three days where we worked hard and our bodies were sore and our tempers may have shown the length of the days, but it was all worth it because at the end of it; you were proud of what you'd accomplished.
I'd be remiss if I didn't mention the fabulous individuals we got to work with:

- I'm looking at you Morgan, RJ, Adrienne, Tyler, Annie, Trevor and Ty -

We bred all of the Double M replacement heifers, along with all of the first calf heifers (H1's) and the early calving 2 and 3 year olds (R1's).  All of the cattle were bred to bulls in this year's Genex Progeny Test.  (More about that in a future post...)  We put CIDR's in the later calving Double M young cows, bred a set of 50+ replacement heifers in the feedlot that are owned by a local ranch and went to Cecil to breed all of the Krebs' young and mature cows.  We started most days at 5:00 am, and didn't leave the AI barn until it was well past dark-thirty.
My feet were past the point of sore as I took off my socks and laid in bed each night - but mentally I had the peace of mind knowing that we were doing exactly what we should be doing. 

Even on Sunday - when the lack of sleep and tiredness was probably evident - at the end of the day when Ty pushed the plunger on the AI gun in the last cow to go thru the barn - we were all still laughing & joking around.
What a blessing.
It's important to have goals.
And it's ok to re-evaluate dreams.
Because dreams and people and circumstances and situations can change.
But what shouldn't change is the desire to keep pushing, to keep evaluating and to keep bettering.
Ourselves, our marriage, our friendships, and our work.
Because success is reason enough.


  1. Great post, Darcy!!!! God is good!!!

  2. I love this post! I haven't read much of your posts over the last few week and so I backtracked a little. I don't know if I knew that background story about you and Clint. I think that is such a great example and lesson in patience, grace and let life just "happen." Thanks for sharing!


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